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| What I got when I looked up "pretty pictures" |
Has anyone else experienced that tangled-brain that comes from trying to think about too much at once? When your circuits go haywire and you can't logic anymore? It usually happens to me when I am tired, or when I take too much on at once, or when I consume things I am allergic to. For a person who thinks all the time, this is a really hard state to function in. Also, it usually produces really bad ideas.
How much stuff does a person actually need? I am narrowing down my possessions, as I redo my house, and I have a lot of books and do-dads that I probably don't need. If I was sentimental I might keep them. Is a set of 3D puzzles going to get used? How much historically-accurate clothing do I need for my work? How many pairs of shoes do I need? So many decisions.
Loneliness is part of being a grown up. An immature person goes around begging for friendship and for their needs to be fulfilled, a mature person realizes that they must stand on their own two feet. Everyone outside of you has their own lives to live, and if you are strong and wise enough to understand it, you will... "mind your own business" in the best of ways.
No one else can actually make you ok. That is why God does it. Making you ok is the whole point of our faith. So in a very real way, God IS a substitute for people, in that he has provided for it. I don't think he is the same as having people. It isn't like you are going to take God to lunch or play frisbee with God, or even have a back and forth conversation out loud. And I think humans do need those physical things. God is more core than that need.
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| Discipline or something. Mostly an interesting picture to break up the monotony. |
Leading a disciplined life is something I need to do. I am not doing it. Darn. What is a disciplined life? My awesome definition was this: a disciplined life is when you curb the most destructive desires of the flesh, and moderate the desires that are good and fulfill them in proper proportion. As such, it is in accordance with walking by faith, and is not inherently legalistic... I think. How you actually do the curbing and moderating is a work in progress. Theoretically it is different for everyone. For me I think it is making my body do stuff. At least that is what my parents tell me, and I think I agree. There is, at least, an 85% chance that they are right. Also, going to bed on time and getting up early and doing chores regularly and brushing my hair daily and washing my clothes and stuff. :-|
I am working on armor for a costume (!) and it is going well, but the planishing takes FOREVERRRRR. And the original in the movie had a front and a back out of metal, but in real life the costume was made out of some sort of foam or plastic, so the back actually would have to be more flexible than the stainless I have. Hence, I am not making the back, or (for that matter) the double shoulder armor ("pauldron") because of the planishing. I am going to do a good job on the etching though, and my version is better than any other version I have seen on the internet so far. And it is my first time making armor, so it is all awesome. :-)
I have three sisters, a brother, myself, Jolena,and Cameron to sew for, if nothing else comes up, when it comes to costumes. And I am making two for myself if possible, because the folk dance costume with the armor is cool, but I also wanted to make a Spiderman dress, and there is a costume swing dance so now I am totally making the Spiderman dress. Booya.
Also everyone I know (<exaggeration) is getting married. Or they have beaux. Or interested parties. And I get to sew some wedding stuff! Like a whole wedding dress! ISN'T IT JUST THE MOST EXCITINGEST THING EVER?!
That is the most macro things. I am also doing school. Lots of school.
